Beyond the looking glass…

I looked in the mirror today and smiled.

I am beautiful, I said out loud.

I was surprised in that moment by how rarely I say that.

So often I find myself in self-scrutiny – the kind that “gives me something to improve upon” or “makes me a better person.”  I am so busy asking myself how I can be better that I neglect to take time to appreciate how good I already am.

Take time to stop and smell the roses.

What a trite little saying. It is so often quoted, it seems so easily done; and yet, in today’s world of hustle and bustle, of hurry up and get ahead, of being a productive member of society or of my family or of humanity, slowing down to appreciate anything outside of progress sometimes feels like a task too time consuming and progress-slowing to undertake authentically.

I looked in the mirror again and smiled.

What if I spend time here –

…just gazing upon the forty-three year old twice-divorced mother of two?  And what if I spend time looking beyond the mirror, through it, behind those hazel eyes?  What if I didn’t allow myself to scrutinize but instead only allowed myself to look for those things I value and that I want others to value and appreciate?

Today I will look in the mirror and smell the roses I see there.

How funny to take those two ideas and the contrasting senses and force them together into the same thought.  My olfactory senses surely won’t work when I apply them against the reflective glass vision, will they?

In my imagination all things are possible.

It is one of the first things I appreciate about me.  And I think I am off and running.


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About ExaltedPeacock

Finding cool new things each day to love about me & those around me. Everyone is peacock beautiful. Celebrate it!

9 responses to “Beyond the looking glass…”

  1. corie says :

    I loved this. Don’t ever be too hard on yourself. You deserve happiness always, but only realize that when you actually want it.
    Love the phrasing. You’re only 43? Shit lady 😉

  2. stacy says :

    lucky you to have such a view in the mirror.

    • ExaltedPeacock says :

      Stacy, I hope to think that everyone could have such a view.

      It doesn’t come naturally at all – at least not for me. Society doesn’t support it, parents don’t teach it. I would say that parents actually work to train it OUT of us because spending time on such things is “selfish” and “self-absorbed.” And pop-cultures images are of our insufficiency and the need to improve some aspect of our failing selves (weight loss, hair color, fitness, prescription pills – all of these top our prime time commercial fare).

      All in all, I think looking at ourselves in joyous introspection is a rare skill that is learned and quite often self-taught. I, myself, actually feel like I am on training wheels – just learning – and still it feels new and different – hence the essay. 🙂

      Thanks so much for your comment.

  3. Carol Bearss says :

    Your site was recommended to me by Mike F. He asked me to check it out and I like it. Yes to smelling the roses and definately don’t be afraid to recognize our tru beauty. We are all beautiful in our own way. I saw this in action one day in a grocery store. There was a little girl about 3 years old in a shopping cart crying her heart out. No one could calm her down: I said ” whatever is wrong? a beautiful girl like you should not be crying so hard” she stopped immediately and just stared at me. Why are we so afraid to recognize beauty?

  4. Jake says :

    You are incredible!!

  5. Mark says :

    My mirror always seems to re-derange me. 🙂

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